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Sunday, November 7, 2010

Standing Up For What I Believe In

Before I get into the article I read on  I just wanted to say that I  have been a member of the Church of Satan since April 9, 2010.  Some people may be wondering why I'm on Venus Satanas facebook page.  Believe me, it comes with consequences but I'm strong enough to stand on my two feet.  Writing about how I feel about Satanism hasn't been easy for me and a lot of what Venus said in her article is true.  There are some Satanists out there who feel no one else's opinion matters and if you do speak your opinion, you'll get ridiculed and in some cases harassed for speaking your mind.  I go through it too and in one instance another member had read my blog "Diary of a Satanist," and was very upset with me and left a remark, "Go back to your domestic life and stop misinforming the public."  I kindly told him to go fuck himself, by asking him, "What makes you so special that you think you're the only one who has opinions and beliefs.?"  Some people say, "You dare to speak to other members like that?"  Sure, I do.  Even Peter Gilmore, the highpriest of the Church of Satan says they can't weed out all the assholes who hold a Church of Satan card.

I like writing and I like writing about Satanism because I feel it is my calling.  I like sharing what I know and what I learn from other people, and in the past two weeks that I've gotten to know Venus, I have learned a lot from her and I continue to do so.  What I didn't know when I started writing about Satanism is that you need to have a back bone and learn to stand up against others when the need arises. I didn't know that it was going to be such a big deal, that other Satanists would get offended by it.  I hear people arguing all the time that they are the true religion and you know, I grew up as a Christian and that is all I heard.  So technically, when we argue about being the true religion and harassing each other for expressing different opinions, we aren't acting any better than they are.

As I read the new article "Satanism and Spirituality- Not a Competition" by Venus Satanas it helped clear up a lot of things for me.  The article made me question my motives as to why I want to write about Satanism.  Am I doing it to compete among other members?  Am I doing it for all the wrong reasons?  Why am I really doing it?  Am I trying to be the next Anton LaVey or the lovely Venus Satanas?

The answer to the first question is, I could careless about the competition.  I do it because I love it and I have a voice that I want to be heard.  The reasons that I'm doing it is because there is so little information out there about Satanism that it isn't even funny by my standards.  I looked for books on and I only found a few that was any helpful. is different because you can find all kinds of stuff on there about Satanism but a lot of it is misleading and untruthful and where I have writing experience, I thought it was time to take part and help change that.  And the last answer is no way do I consider being the next Anton LaVey or the Venus Satanas.  I am my own person, with my own voice, with my own beliefs.  I look up to these people because they made a difference in people's lives, they stood up for what they believed in, and no matter how rough things got, they always found a way.  But, most importantly, they made a difference in mine. 

I'm not an expert by all means.  Although I may have been a born Satanist, it was just within the past two years that I've really gotten into it.  The first year I studied and read every book I could get my hands on and this year I am writing about it as I go along which I think might be useful for others who are just starting out.  And Venus is right.  Satanism is not an easy road to travel and Satanism definitely isn't about holding a card that says you're a member of an organization.  Unfortunately, anyone can carry a membership card.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

The Unholy Scriptures

What I am about to present is something that I have been working on for a few weeks now.  The Unholy Scriptures was written to mock the Jehovah Witness bible "The New World Translation of the Holy Scriptures. " This was written just for the fun of it so don't be alarmed.  The full version of The Unholy Scriptures will be available in a couple of days.  Some verses are not included with this version because they may be offensive to some viewers, meaning they are sexually explicit.

There are no gods before me for I am my own God.

I am Satan, the Adversary, the opposite of good.  I am the accuser, the Lord of Fire, the inferno.  I am the south.
I am Lucifer, the bringer of light.  I am the enlightenment and air and the morning star.  I am the east.
I am Belial, the wicked one, I am without a master.  I am the baseness of the earth and independence.  I am the north.
I am Leviathan, the serpent of the seas.  I am the west.

The Xians say we are evil but, as you can see, that is not so.  Look at the millions of people who have been slaughtered in the name of Jehovah.  Tell us, who is evil now?
While the Xians stand in our line of judgment, we, Satanists, stand together in the Organization that stands firm.
We know the way to true indulgence, the path that leads to our freedom.  And while we make ourselves plentiful, the Xians will sit back and do nothing.

Through wisdom, knowledge and power, we stand above all others.  We will not bow before anything or anyone for our true nature is serving ourselves.

In the beginning was the word and the word was with Satan.  The same was with the beginning because all things were made by him for without him these things would not be made.  Through Satan there was life and this life gave light to every living creature.  The life that gave light in the darkness became ever so brighter.  Satan, the creator of all things, gave life to every living thing that came into the world.

Praise Satan’s name with a whole and mighty heart for he does marvelous works.

Ask not what Satan can do for you but what you can do for Satan.

Blessed are they who walk in the counsel of Satan.
Blessed are they who keep their own commandments.
Blessed are they who smite their enemies hip and thigh.
Blessed are they who hate the Messiah with a whole and mighty heart.
Blessed are they who spits in the face of Christ.
Blessed are they who refuse to hear lies.

Like the god they worship, the Xians are cold, heartless, and cruel.  They have been that way since the beginning of time and they aren’t about to change now.

I am the wild who can not be tamed and forever I will be free.

The Xians consider us evil and wicked, but look at the things they have done.

Jehovah’s word is detestable and so I will burn the Holy Bible every Satanic Holiday.  I hate the father, the son, and the Holy Spirit and with Satan’s mighty sword I will strike them down.

As I have said Many times before, I will not let the thoughts of God enter my mind for I refuse to be part of the enslavement.

I drink from the cup of forbidden pleasures.  I see the truth in all lies.  I eat from the tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil and now my eyes have opened and I have become like God, and the sweetness on my tongue is forever more.

Teach me, Satan, the way of your statutes and I will keep them to the end.  Give me understanding and I will keep your Law.  I will observe it with a whole heart.
Make me go into the paths of Darkness for therein I do find delight.  Incline my heart to your testimonies and for this I will not refrain from my indulgences.

As I walk in the paths of Darkness, I do seek your knowledge and for this I will speak of you.  I will not be ashamed.  I will delight myself in your books which I have loved for so long and I will meditate day and night.  Help me understand your ways, Almighty Satan, and I will talk and write of your works.  It is your knowledge that caused my heart to overflow with joy.

Give me the power and knowledge that I so desire for I do believe in your works.  Before I was afflicted with guilt and confusion and so I went astray.  But now I have come to my senses and I am ready to be like you.  You are good to me and because of this the Xians have forged a lie against me.  It does not matter for I have learned your ways.

O Satan, how I love your Law!  It is meditation day and night.  Through your ways I have been made wiser than any of my enemies for they are far beneath me.  I have more understanding than all of my teachers because you have given it to me.  I understand more than the ancient gods and goddesses because I continue to walk in the path of Darkness.  I will never depart from you.  Satan, you have taught me well.  O how sweet your works are to my taste; they are sweeter than anything I have ever tasted.

Hail Satan, the Prince of Darkness, the infernal Lord of Hell!
Be with me, Almighty Satan, as I perform this Unholy ceremony
Guide me through the darkest of life’s challenges and help me keep my faith in you strong.  Give me the strength to conquer my fears, to understand that life is full of uncertainties.  Make my enemies perish with whatever means necessary.  Watch over me, Almighty Satan, and keep me from harm.  Walk with me today and every day.
During this Unholy ceremony, I dedicate my mind, body, and soul.
Hail Satan!

The Will of Satan is the Law.  The gifts of sin are the deeds done in this world for he who strengthens the self gains mastery of the self.

(c) Copyright by Infinity Diabolus

Friday, November 5, 2010

What Lurks Behind My Eyes

I had the wierdest dream this morning and Venus Satanas was in it and I think it might've been because I had stayed up late to watch to her dance video on Youtube. I thought she was amazing considering that she was pulling herself up and spinning around the pole one handed and hanging upside with just her legs.  To pull yourself up with one arm takes incredible strength and she is definitely powerful.

In the dream, I was stumbling and falling down all over the place and it felt like I was drugged.  In my mind, I knew I was under a spell and so I got in my car, drove off to find her, ended up driving off the road into someone's yard.  They let me inside and I asked if they knew Venus Satanas and the woman looked at the guy, smiling, then said they didn't.  I knew they were lying and as I started to walk away from the house, I fainted on the road.  Later I woke up in another person's house and I still felt drugged. Outside the house were people wearing buisness suits looking for me.  Among them was Venus. So I got up looking around and there was Venus waiting for me and she was not happy with me.  I don't remember the conversation I had but she threw me down on my back and she was looking over me with her powerful eyes. I remember seeing a sentence tatooted on her arm that read something like, "The first ones to hate were the first ones who started it" or it might've been, "They were the first ones to hate and the first ones to start."  I have been thinking about that all day and don't have a clue to what it means.  The funny thing was while I was waking up, I was half conscious like I was coming around but it felt like I was being held down by something I couldn't see.  This something kept telling me to stay but my mind was shouting, "Wake up! You have got to wake up!"  I woke up as hard as it was and I felt groggy and wanted to go back to sleep to dream some more, but I finally came around not knowing where the hell I was and got ready for my meeting that I was supposed to have at noon.

In 2002, I was diagnosed with Pulmonary Arterial Hypertension and I have to mix my medicine every morning.  So I did my mix and when I swept the empty containers into the trash I also swept my car keys into the trash. I looked all over the apartment for them and then I decided to empty the waste basket.  When I laid the trash bag on the floor to put the new trash bag into the waste basket I heard the clinging sound of keys.  Sure enough, they were there.  Although I was fifteen minutes late for my meeting I was still able to see my Worker. 

This evening I finished the second version of The Unholy Scriptures and I am now taking a break from typing it up.  It will be done and uploaded on tomorrow...finally.  It was a fun project to work on although most of the verses were referenced to Satan but I didn't know how else to make it Unholy.  I know I'll be hearing about that but I'm a writer and that is what I do.  I write to educate people and I write to entertain people.  At first, I was going to write it up for myself because I was going to light a few black candles on Halloween and read out of it, but it wasn't done and I never got the kids to bed until late.  And I mean late.  But I thought, maybe other Satanists would like to read it so I posted the first version of it on my Satanic-Pride blog and got a lot of readers.  If I can put a smile on peoples' faces and give them something to read that they would actually enjoy reading, I don't see what it is wrong with it. There was also a part of me that wrote it from the heart cause I put a lot feeling into it.

The second version includes the verses that I didn't write up in the first version because they were sexually explicit and if some Christian (like my sister in law for instance) came around they would probably report it.  The dumb mother fuckers.  So after tomorrow I can work on my next project.  I might do some drawings and when I'm able to download the software to my camera onto my computer, I will upload them on Facebook and my websites as well.

Well, it's going on midnight and I'm going to head off to Infinity's World.  I don't quite dare to ask what I might dream about tonight,  but whatever lurks in my dreams will soon be waiting.